Dear Dad (Grandpa):
We are thinking of you, as always. We miss you and wish nothing more than for you to meet our sweet little girl. She knows you - we have your photo up everywhere - and she points and says, "Grandpa!" If I show her your photo on my phone or in an album she knows and says your name. Today she has caught a few of my tears and pointed to my cheek and says, "sad?" and it's the sweetest reaction. You would be beside yourself with love.
I read your letter every year, and as much as it kills me, it reminds me that you were ready to go and in so much pain. It is not fair to wish you could have kept suffering, but it's hard to not think that there must have been something I could have done. If I had only paid closer attention. If I had only taken you to get help.
People talk about how much you're missing - not being able to see Landry and watch her grow. But I remind myself to remember that you were present in the most important ways. You helped me grow and raised me and prepared me for the wonderful life I have. You never left, you didn't give up when I needed you, and you always showed us so much love. I am the luckiest girl to have had the best father. You are present in me.
We continue to keep your memory alive and honor you in all the ways possible. We miss you every second.
All of our love,
Ashley & Landry
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